Broken

I thought I loved you
But not today
The love I had
Seem to have slipped away

It really doesn't matter now
My heart is already broken
You needed a ride to my heart
Like a dummy I gave you the token

Now I feel betrayed
Now I feel decieved
Since I am now broken
What is there to believe

I thought you would be good for me
But I guess you were outspoken
You shouldn't care about me now
Its too late for I am broken

Emotions

Sadness

Cold

Hurt

Stress

Happiness

Joy

Laughter

The cycle of emotions continues

One day I’m happy

One day I’m sad

One week I’m joyous

The next one I’m mad

All ask themselves how this comes about

It is only emotions

They have to come out

Sadness

Happiness

Cold

Joy

Hurt

Laughter

Stress

Pushing

It seems in life I push so hard

Left with only disappointments

and mental scars

The harder I push

I am pushed further back

Not knowing what to do

Not knowing how to react

This thing we call life

Is such a give and take

You never know when you’re going to make it

Don’t know when you’re going to break

Got to continue to live life

Continue to make a living

Despite how hard things get

I have to keep on pushing

Suprise

It’s a surprise to see you here

Out of all places

Out of all faces

I see you standing there

Looking at me with wide eyes

As if to say surprise

What brings you here

And why now

It’s not that I am not happy to see you

But why now

They say your past always creeps up in the future

Now I see that’s true

Because out of all things in my future

I never thought I would be seeing you

Surprise.

Grow Up

There are people in this world I pity for.

In this world and don’t know how to live.

Don’t know how to handle themselves,

don’t know how to give,

the ones who need it the most, attention.

Instead on the internet starting drama

And I failed to mention,

also over the phone.

Grow up.

There is a time and a place for everything

and now is not the time.

Failing to put priorities first

is simply an over committed crime.

So take time and think about the words that I say.

Hopefully it will sink in one day.

Grow up.

For a Reason

At times I wonder
why things happen the way they do.
Why things doesn’t go as planned,
when trying to replace old with new.
Everything happens for a reason.
Hurt, pain, and suffering,
or excitement, surprises, and happiness
all happens when least expected.
Despite of everything,
always know your blessed.
God allows things to happen in life
that coincides with the next day.
Though sometimes I fail to realize it
I must say,
everything happens for a reason.

AJ

I Love You

It’s so amazing how I love you so much

even though you haven’t entered this world yet.

Every time you kick, I smile.

Every time you roll over, I blush.

Just awaiting your arrival makes me anxious and excited.

Our conversations are amazing, though you can’t talk back.

Your movements let me know you hear me.

They also let me know your okay.

One more month and your smiles and cries will be my world.

Your presence will keep me full of joy.

I am so ready for you, my first child, my little boy.

I love you.

Dedicated to my soon to be born son Adrian Xavier Amis Jr.

Rain

"Sometimes it starts as a misty rain
that gently touches my soul.
It cools the fire that burns in me
and I simply lose control."
Just like this old R&B song says,
that is how I feel in this weather.
The rain touching my window,
pounding down like the feel of a heartbeat,
like the sound of the base on a soft beat.
I can’t control myself in this weather.
It’s like we are meant to be together.
Me and you,
you and I.
Your soft warmth and soothing touch.
Oh how I love my blanket so much

in this rain.

Train Thoughts

Gazing at the different types of people,

some big some small,

some short some tall.

Not knowing if someone is going thru pure hell

covered by a stern look or impressive smile.

Not knowing if someone who appears to be made of pure gold

is simply made of sterling silver.

All coming from a hard day of work, school, or another activity,

heading to the same destination.

Somewhere we each call home.

Disaster

Epigraph from “Complete Destruction”                                                                                                                     

William Carlos Williams

  It was an icy day.

 We buried the cat,

 then took her box

 and set fire to it

 in the back yard.

 Those fleas that escaped 

 earth and fire

 died by the cold.

  It was a natural disaster.

  We sheltered our homes,

  boarded the windows and

  covered each hole.
  The trees couldn’t be sheltered

  from the treacherous weather.

 Those trees were pulled from

  their roots and moved to

  another home.